Pondering

I never quite know what the content of this blog should be. Sometimes i'll write an entire blog post and then delete it because i think it sounds too melodramatic. I try to keep things a bit lighthearted but also touch on some key things that are happening in my life. Its a super fine line and I guess I toe it well.

All that being said...I'm struggling. Spiritually, emotionally, physically....i feel like i've checked out of a lot of things. My New Years resolution was to get in shape...yet i made no realistic strides towards that progress. When I came to WEC my resolution was to grow spiritually and socially. Some days i feel i'm accomplishing those goals...others not so much. For the first time in my life...I feel like I am waiting for something to happen. Part of me wants to go out and do things my way..but i learned long ago that is a recipe for disaster...so i sit here..waiting..listening..and praying.

Top 25 Most Played List

Currently on twitter, my friend Sean of the fabulous http://acegface.blogspot.com/ and I have been playing around with a hashtag #25mostplayedlist . This has been a nice fun diversion for us and its been very interesting comparing our lists. So far my list is:

25 - The Feel Good Drag: Anberlin
24 - Ladies and Gentlemen:Saliva
23 - Rollin:Big & Rich
22 - Miseria Cantare:AFI
21 - Ooh Aah(My life be like):grits
20 - after the world:disciple
19 - This is it:Jonah33
18 - Carry on my wayward son:kansas
17 - the kill:30 seconds to mars
16 - the dark side of indoor track meets:falling up
15 - Step Up:drowning pool
14 - Bring me to life:Evanescence


As you can see my music taste range all over the place(also shown by only 1 artist showing up twice in my top 25 list). I have country, rap, and rock all representing. So what about you? Want to join in on the hashtag madness? What is your #1 most listened to song?

Heart Shaped Candy

I thought about writing an entire post today listing the reasons I hate Valentines Day...but I'm not that much of a scrooge.


When I was a kid my favorite part of VDay was getting free candy from my fellow classmates...it was like a mini-Halloween except without all the nasty Candy Corn. I think the most common candy was the Chalk Tasting Heart Shape Candy(white was my favorite flavor). On each Heart was written romantic words like "Hug Me"or "I love you". Also Spiderman VDay cards were the best. I never did figure out why handing those outs didn't make the ladies swoon ;)

Super Bowl Mind Dump

How did you spend your Super Bowl? We had my 55 inch LED tv hooked up in the living room with a 22 inch LCD connected in the dining room so you could grab food and not miss the game.

On the menu was such greats as Pizza, taquitos, chili, and chips & dip.

The commercial winners for our group seemed to be Pepsi Max and Doritos. That being said i still won't ever drink Pepsi Max.

On Half Time, while it did exceed some of the groups expectations, the black eye peas are just not a super bowl halftime show act. In fact the biggest reaction from the group came when Slash showed up before Fergie started murdering "Sweet Child O' Mine".

The group as a whole was rooting for the Packers so we were very happy with the results.

Some betting lines we would have hit if we actually gambled: The word "brave" being held for longer than 6 seconds and Aaron Rodgers as super bowl MVP

Betting Line we would have loss: christina aguilera singing the anthem correctly.

Music

Most of yall know I am absolutely a huge fan of the band RED. Well today they released their newest CD Until We Have Faces based on C.S. Lewis novel of the same name. If you want a quick listen you can currently hear it here

I've already listened through it a few times and it exceeded my expectations.


Also set your calenders for May 8th, Alter Bridge will be hitting it up at the norva!

Here We Go....

Decided for a far more fun post this week. Just wanted to throw some things that have been in my mind out there.

• February is A) a really hard month to spell...I mean seriously who ever heard of the u before a rule? B)The shortest month..which is awesome because that means March gets here quicker. 3)The month billions of roses die.

• So I've been thinking about the incredible hulk recently. In the movies/comics, bruce banner's wife is the only person who can talk him out of Hulk state back into his real persona. I think this is unrealistic. Really? The person you spend all your time with is ALWAYS going to get you less angry? Wonder what fights in that household are like.

• My birthday is coming up...in March. Did I mention February is a really slow month. I hope i get something awesome.
  

Opening Up

Relationships...Friendships...Acquaintanceships(that's a real word right?). All of these revolve around being real and opening up to another person. The struggle for me has not been finding people to talk to. My struggle has not been finding people who will open up to me. Rather my struggle is opening up to others. I'm struck with this fear that if others saw me I would not be accepted.

Rob talked on Sunday about the thought of man's dependence upon relationships with man. That God has inherently created within us a desire to be with other people. But i think it goes much deeper than that. The verse Rob used was Genesis 2:18: Then the Lord God said, “It is not good for the man to be alone. I will make a helper who is just right for him.” I think this verse is bigger than friends...i think its bigger than people in your life. I think what this verse points to is a longing for companionship. A person who you share your life with. Everything. That one close friend who always walks beside you.

For many years in my life this need was filled in me by my best friends. Guys who I hung out with everyday quite literally. Right now I seem to have lost this. Sure I have some amazing friends(shout out to my CG peeps Sean, Casey, and Meghan), but I have yet to find what i consider true companionship. Someone who is like a brother or a sister to me.

Sometimes I feel like i'm living the song stain glass masquerade by casting crowns:

"So I tuck it all away, like everything’s okay
If I make them all believe it, maybe I’ll believe it too
So with a painted grin, I play the part again
So everyone will see me the way that I see them"